First I'm sorry if this comes out less than coherent, I'm very shook up right now. I've been married nearly 4 years, and just found out that my wife cheated on me about 3 months before we got married. It was with a former co-worker, who since used it to extort money from her. He recently got an order of protection against her (attempted one on me, though I've never met him), apparently just to mess with her. This combined with some odd behavior on her part, let me to do some digging, which led to me doing a search at the county courthouse this morning. Sure enough there was a file, in which she stated her relationship to him had been a romantic one - I had read you needed a relation like that to get an order of protection. Well, I confronted her, and she told me it happened - twice - a few months before we got married. Her reason is that I had been drinking a lot at the time, and after a really bad fight (the one time in my life I hit a woman) she was "seduced". She says she is so sorry, and I honestly believe that - although she has hit the "we weren't married", "you had girls before you met me" buttons a few times. I'm only 8 hours into this and I am scared, angry, sad, and very, very confused. I feel like I want time alone, and I don't want to be rash, but everytime I start to feel calmed down, I think about what she did and I almost get sick. Help!